I get sick of crying all the time.
I lied, I’m not okay and I really wish I could turn back time.
Flashbacks. Oh boy.
And I still get so nervous whenever I hear his voice.
Getting a passport and learning a language. I notice I’m getting old, I used to pick up languages so easily and now it’s a nightmare.
Ugh.. fucking anxiety..
Knowing the fact he’s the one only makes things worse.
I need help.
This does not feels okay. Not at all.
Walking, your voice on the background, suicide on my mind.
I should do less things I’ll end up regretting later.
Things feel so strange. I want it back like it used to be.
I don’t know what’s going on anymore.
I would kill for a change. Hurt me all over again.